Jessica (amethystrse) wrote,

OK so I'm feeling better than I did yesterday. I've been having issues lately with my kids and it's been really getting to me. I also have a lot of other stuff on my mind. Some of it I can go to my friends about. Some of it I feel like a fool because it's not something another person may find to be major. So I'm going to write about it on here. Trusty livejournal. Where all my issues can be aired out and help get them off of my chest.

Aside from the issues I'm having with the kids (and the fact that Orion may be sent to a residential treatment program in Reno) things are actually OK. I mean I'm depressed but that's because I'm burned out.

I have something I want to do really bad. I want to start a webcomic. I have the story line and the character outlines. My issue is that I'm not so good at drawing men and my women need some help too. I don't know what I'm going to do about it. It's silly, I know. But it's really bothering me.

I know I need more practice and that will help solve everything. But I'm so worried about the kids that instead of practicing drawing I'm driving myself crazy and doing anything but. Yet I know that drawing helps me to get passed issues as it's very theraputic. But not as much as one would hope.

I think today after I do some laundry and figure out exactly when Kieriana is going to school (I think her summer school starts on Monday) I'm going to sit down in the garage and just draw. I'm going to look up images of men on dreamstime or something and just draw them. Work at them until I am drawing the way I want to. Then I'm going to work from my head again.

I know I can do this. I just have to do it. Just do that's easier said than done.
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