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I have no interest in doing anything remotely productive. But, alas, my life is not my own and therefore I just concede to taking care of my children and my husband at the very least. I'm able to do that I just wish I could curl up into a little ball and stop existing. I need the vacation. My mind is a blubberous mass of chaos and I don't have the organizational skills to once again put order to it.

Enough of that. Seriously, I'm depressed, Very very depressed. It's all I can do to make sure the kids are clean and fed and taken to their appointments. I want to scream and yell and throw things. I want to tear apart everything. I won't, ofcourse. I mean that would just be childish. But man, right now it sounds good.

I guess I'll finish making dinner. Something both healthy and enjoyable. Not easy with my munchkins. But oh well. That's part of my life.

What I would like to do is to start drawing. I finally finished that drawing for my friend (pic on my facebook). Now I just need to take a better pic, one NOT taken with my cell phone under bad lighting, and post it on here and deviantart.

However, I don't seem to have the drive to draw. The desire is there, but only just barely.

I think tonight I'll go to bed early. Being awake just takes too much out of me.

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serielda
Jul. 20th, 2012 05:50 am (UTC)
Aww cheer up, everyone has moments where they get reacquainted with the dreaded wall of ambition. If I know you half way from online here and there, you will find your spark again.
amethystrse
Jul. 20th, 2012 06:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon. I'm just so burned out from other issues. I need to learn to relax once in a while. lol *hugs*
serielda
Jul. 25th, 2012 02:50 am (UTC)
Tell me about it
I feel like the whole word is against us down here in NOLA. Long infacr to long of a nightmare of a weekend and it's far from over.
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