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Journey to help

This morning I did a shamanic journey to find help for dealing with all of this anxiety and stress. The answers I received showed me that this is something I have to learn how to handle. I have a reason for being so stressed out. I need to learn how to cope with such stress while not letting it rule my life.

I was told to utilize my inner strength and to practice being mindful of my thoughts, emotions, and actions. Take deep breaths when I start to get that high anxiety low tolerance feeling. It's easier said than done but I know I can do it.

Dealing with such intense emotions is something I don't deal with well. My children are the same way and it's why they have so many issues. If I can learn to control my behavior better, then I can take what I've learned to teach them how to handle theirs. Everything for a reason.

I talked with Kieriana this morning before she left for school and explained to her that I was stressed out and that's why I had been yelling so much. At her school they taught her how to use a coping word. When she starts freaking out someone says the word and she relaxes. It sort of snaps her out of it. Her word is "butterflies" and it's really been working. We decided mine will be "monkeys". Whenever I start to get agitated someone can say "monkeys" and it will remind me to get control of myself before I start turning into super bitch.

I can handle this. I've dealt with worse things than this. I can deal with this too.


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Apr. 27th, 2012 10:14 pm (UTC)
I didn't want to ask because I know some people don't like to talk about their religious rituals and whatnot, but it's still on my mind after a few days, so I'm going to bite the bullet and ask. If you're not comfortable answering, feel free to say so. :)

How do you do a shamanic journey to get information like that?
Apr. 28th, 2012 02:47 am (UTC)
I don't mind at all hon. Shamanism is something I'm really attracted to.

Journeying is something that you do to visit the spirit worlds. There are 3. A lower world where you usually talk with your animal spirits. An upper world where you usually talk to your spirit teachers. And the middle world where you can commune with the spirits of nature.

To journey you need to listen to a repetitive beat, like drumming or a rattle. You start off with a quick beat and work your rhythm to a slow one. It's supposed to be monotonous. The beat of the drum or rattle will put you in a trance state.

It was always suggest to me that for a person's first journey you should go to the underworld. When I did that I met both my animal spirit and my spirit teacher.

While drumming think about an area you know of that has a natural opening in the ground. It can be a hole or a cave or a well or anything like that. Travel down into the hole and through a tunnel (for me it's a tunnel, for others it could be something else like a shaft or whatnot).

After you leave the tunnel you'll find yourself in an area. For me this is a cliff with a giant waterfall. Down at the bottom there is a lagoon and a forest off on the shore. I go down their either by jumping into the water or walking down steps on the side. For you the area outside of the tunnel may be different.

When you find a spirit ask if they're your guide. Then you can talk to them about matters you're experiencing.
Apr. 28th, 2012 03:00 am (UTC)
Sounds cool. I've tried it once before a long time ago and didn't know if it was the same thing you were referring to or not. When I did it, I went down into a hole in the ground and met a stag. Today, I tried it again, but without a drum beat. I met three animals, a wolf, deer, and bear. I thought I was making it up, but I couldn't seem to snap out of it. Then I traveled back to where I had walked in, and the second I opened the door to walk back into "my world," my eyes just snapped open. It was kind of freaky, but cool too. It's neat to find out that's what you meant by a shamanic journey. I've only done it twice in my life and it's been enlightening each time.

I'll have to try it with the drumbeat and see what happens.
Apr. 29th, 2012 02:33 am (UTC)
Yeah, that pretty much is what a journey is like. Though I find I can snap out of it at any time. :)
Apr. 29th, 2012 02:36 am (UTC)
I think I could have if I'd really wanted to, but there would've been more to it than just waking up.
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